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Walter the dog



One cannot truly comprehend other’s misfortune until the same thing strikes you down right there.

I confess. I used to believe that a blood transfusion, an MRI scan or chemotherapy for pets were rather OTT. It's a pitiable but undignified effort to make themselves feel better rather than their pets. I was convinced that if and when anything happens to my dog I would be able to keep calm all through and make a ruthless decision if necessary.

With my dog deteriorating so rapidly and being still so close to death, it finally hit home and I've come to understand that, well, it’s not that simple.

You of course miss your animal really badly and try to figure out why it has happened to you and your pet, though you never find an answer to that question. The loss of the ordinary happiness is so great and you realise how closely your pet’s existence has been knitted in every minute and every second of your life. The sensation of the realisation of him not being there 'as usual' makes you feel extremely sick and you start to dig your memory and wonder in trance how Stephen King’s ‘Pet Sematary’ went…

You wait for a good piece of news for hours on, unable to do anything ordinary in the household apart from thinking of your beloved pet in tears, knowing somewhere in your head that such good news never gets delivered anyway, and eventually try to content yourself with a could-be-worse situation. But then you again in vain start to drift into the believe that good news might come out after all…

There is this money issue as well unless your pet is fully covered by the insurance without excess. (Mine is not insured as a result of a conscious decision.) Where do you draw the line? What's OTT and what’s ‘you’ve done as much as you can’? One moment you are prepared to do anything and everything you can do for your pet. But the next moment reason kicks in and scolds you for being silly and tells you that your life must go on with or without your pet.

My dog has just had a blood transfusion. It’s been confirmed that he is suffering from auto immune haemolytic anaemia (AIHA). They cannot tell what has caused it if anything triggered it or what might be an underlying factor if any. The recurrent rate and loss rate seems to be dismayingly high. He's been on meds and staying at the vet. Hopefully he overcomes this crisis this time. But then what...?

Let’s take one step at a time.

One thing certain is that I will never be able to put on the arrogant conviction that I could possibly keep my cool through all this.

Never.
by uk_alien | 2012-04-08 20:23 | animals

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